Been a while...

It's been a while...

For those of you who know me though, then there is no surprise in that statement. As I have said before - It's not the people who let you down, it's your own expectations of them. Sorry all...

The beauty of simplicity is the complexity it attracts…

The beauty of simplicity is the complexity it attracts.

 

There’s a lot of truth in that one statement. A stunning detail in life. For life is rather simple and beautiful, but people make it so complex. And that’s disappointing in more ways than one.

 

A life is not lived without noticing the small things which are taken for granted. In which, I could give thousands of examples, and here are just a few – the sound of a child’s laughter, the dew that settled on the grass from the night before, the sunlight coming through the trees, a simple melody from a bird’s chirp, the smell of rain, or the luxurious sound of a river running. Need I go on, or do you get my drift?

Why not for once, take your own breath for granted. Do you really think it’s going to be there forever? Do you ever question the day that it will stop? Probably not, for you know nothing of what it feels like to have it taken away, or simply having the fear of it being taken. Do me a favor and really think about this for just one second before you go on…

Okay, now that you have thought about that… then maybe you should start thinking about the people you take for granted, such as your family and friends. Mmm… good one, huh? I bet, for one second there, you never even thought that it was possible that you, yourself, could ever take someone else for granted. Just goes to show you that, it doesn’t take much for a person to actually forget how much another person means to them. I will even admit that I have been so selfish, so shameless to have even done this one.  So let’s just take another second, and think of all the people you say you love… and then question yourself this one thought – do you take this person for granted? Do you think they will be there forever? It may be harsh for some of you to hear this – but the answer is NO. No, they won’t be there forever. So love them as much as possible, let them know you care, let them know that you truly are there. Do not fight, nor argue with the ones you love for this just leads to hurt feelings and an endless amount of apologies. Just for the record, I hate to argue with people, for if the last thing I got to say to someone was something out of anger, then I’d have to live with that for the rest of my life. Needless to say, I promote the last words at any time to be ‘I love you’. And this goes back to the old days – do unto others…

And this leads to next of topics…

Boy, I really wish for once that people would actually think before their actions. I am most positive that every one reading this has said or did something that hurt someone in the end. And plain and simple, it’s unfair. Put yourself in the shoes of another, before you belittle them. Sit back, and think your thoughts to yourself for a second. Would it hurt if someone did it to you? Would it hurt if someone said it to you? And if you answered yes to either of those, then do the world a favor and keep your mouth shut and your actions to yourself. And if you still find it hard to do that, then be sure to keep in mind that there is a truth in ten fold – meaning the pages will turn and with them bringing ten times the effect.

Let’s go back a step – the granted thing and how they relate.

Material objects – yes, I have quite a few, but that is all they are – materialistic. They pertain to physical, rather than the spiritual or intellectual aspect of things. They can be repaired, resold, and replaced. Key word I suppose would be replaced.  You can replace anything of material nature. It is the human nature that is irreplaceable. Because if one of us got hurt, then how could you really replace that? How can you replace someone who you love? You can not, there’s not a way. And believe me, if there were a way, then I would have already found it. For I have lost many that I have loved. Many people that deserve to be here, to be part of this world, to carry on good, to carry on their love for it meant something to someone. Yet, let’s not remember that part in this so called life. Let’s worry about the things that don’t give us anything other than wasteful minds. Wasteful minds with no important thoughts. Wasteful minds which do not understand the meaning of life what so ever. Let’s worry about the material shit. Yeah, let’s worry about the cars, the trucks, the toys. Let’s worry about how we are so much better than the neighbor, or how we have more than the other. Come on people, that’s just plain ignorance. The way a person lives has nothing to do with the the things we live with or the perspective of life itself. You should feel pretty ridiculous right now if that is all that you are worried about. I mean take a look around, take an actual look. These people you put down, seem to be pretty happy with what they have. And the reason for that, is because they have actually come to terms with the meaning of living. The true meaning of life, love, and happiness. Where is yours? Do you keep it in the glove box of your brand new car? Or is it trapped in the plasma of your 55” television? Maybe it’s tucked away within the crevices of your walls? The very crevices you take for granted. Let’s see it burn down, let’s see it fall to pieces… Then come to me and tell me how much you miss it. And I am sure that you will speak of the luxuries that are gone, not of the memories you lost. Or maybe let’s have a fender bender, then you will talk about the damage or the loss of your car, not of the fact that no one was harmed. Do you people seriously feel more for a non living thing than of life itself? Do you think that this man made shit really fulfills a purpose? If you do, then maybe you should go ahead and put a man made gun to your pathetic head and see where that gets you. Bang --- not far, huh?

Want to hear more? Well you’ve read this far obviously, so I must have said something that caught your interest. And I’m on a rant, so why stop now?

Negativity – oh my, negativity. If you’ve got it, then do the world a favor and get over it. If that fails then invest in the stock of Prozac… stock it in your medicine cabinet, better yet stock it in your stomach. No, disregard that, because it is overused and mistreated. Yes, I do believe there are some people out there that are chemically imbalanced (let’s take Jeffrey Dahmar for instance). But for that matter, Prozac couldn’t have even touched that case. So, I guess what I am trying to say is that life is not that bad. I mean, every one of us gets down from time to time. And all of us have problems. Though, do we really need to take a pill to get better or is there an alternative. I bet you’d never believe this, but low and behold… there is an alternative. A simple answer. A simple discovery made by man. And here it is… Every problem has a solution – now that is something I learned in math class (2 + 2 = 4) and maybe if you’d had paid attention… then we could have cut the pharmaceutical business out a long time ago. And with that I could go on and on about the governmental control with the pharmaceutical world, but I’m sure you are already aware of it. And if for some reason you’re not, then I’m sure there will be a time that I will want to rant on and on about that, just not tonight (hell I wouldn’t be able to sleep for a week cause my fingers would be endlessly tapping on this keyboard so we will leave that for another topic all in itself). So we will go along to the next for now… another complex issue.

Why do people worry about things that which they have no control over. Every thing happens for a reason - Reason and rhyme, rhyme and reason. And for the most part, we don’t get the chance to realize it at the time it happens why it happened, but later we understand it, when we really need to know why. In turn, making the big things seem so little in the end. And once again proving that there is no need to worry ourselves. No need to overreact, no need to dwell upon, no need to cause yourself any more gray hairs.  Meaning, that there is no need to stress.  So stress should actually be solace.

 

With solace, I will leave you. I will let it lead you into simplicity.

Simplicity – that’s what we all need.

Simplicity – that’s all we need.

 

Live, laugh, love…

Amazing..

Amazing… is it not?

Just the simple thought…

 

Of how you came back into my life? A new kind of strife. All the years gone past, a sudden blast. When I least expected it, when I least wanted it, when I least desired it. Even when I probably least deserved it? Though when I needed it just a bit, that, yes I can admit. Ironic, how I thought I could never love again… then we began. Never was there a plan, or a better than. Just a soft kiss on a spring night, made everything seem so right. You gave me a start. You gave me your heart. You gave me more, than I could ever ask for. Something I never had before, something to adore. Now in your arms, safe from harm, I lay at night, as you hold me tight. Dreaming of a tomorrow with no sorrow. Dreaming of you and me, and the way we will be. Dreaming of the years to come, and the things to become. Knowing that with you, I found a love that is true. A love I can believe, one that will never leave. And I promise you to the end, your heart I will mend. Through thick and thin, from within. And back again. I give you it all, my heart and soul. My love you have it all.

 

Halter Monitor

Black, Brown, Red, Yellow, Green…

 

It’s like the new Bob Marley colors and even though we know it’s not it does sound good for the moment.

 

Wire wire how much do you desire

And if you desire, what’s the price for hire?

Black, Brown, Red, Yellow, Green…

It’s not what it seems.

Life – Chocolates – I think not.

Life is not like a box of chocolates at all…

Life is like a box of cereal.

You have to reach in and dig for the prize.

Fruity pebbles – here I come.

Get ready for some fun.

Sheila

She was a bitch

Hell wouldn’t even own

Every word she spoke

Indeed a lie in every tone

Lost in a deep sense

Alone, so all alone

Beautiful World

Beautiful world...

Where will you take me today?

In your arms, I will lay.

In your path, I will play.

In your sight, I will stay.

Beautiful world...

Lead me on my way.

Once out, once in…

I am my own heroin, filled with sin.

One more shot of pain; down that road again.

Escaping from within; once out, once in.

A great loss at a big win.

An outrageous spin on what life has been.

Then coming back again.

Just a theory…

Counteracting the effects of love.

Do I believe in love? Yes. Do I believe that I have felt love at it’s greatest? Yes. Do I believe that I have loved to my fullest extent? Yes.

But, of all things given as face value, love is the least accountable for. It provides a falsehood of security within itself. An endless question. A moment of heart, lost within mind. There are many explanations of this, and we could go on and on. In this case though, see it as how you want to believe it.

But remember…

People fall in and out of love every day, every hour, every minute. Did that surprise you when it happened to you? Did you want to give in, break down, and cry yourself to sleep? Sure, go ahead, but for a moment only. Do not allow yourself to fall into a pathetic state of mind. Things are meant to be, so obviously that love was not one of them. And you should not give up on life just because you had a chance at love, and it didn’t turn out the way you wanted. Look at this way – Was the whole relationship a total waste? Of course not, because at that time, you had no idea what you gained from loving, even if it were actually losing.

Here’s a good quote I came upon one day…

All my failings were preparations for the day I met you.

In some way, that must be true. Think about it. Could you have loved the next person, without knowing the love you had before. Maybe, maybe not.  But, never think of love as a failure. Each time that love passes you by, another love is given. A love stronger than the one before. Obviously, we as humans, need that to learn and to live. For we do not know in ourselves the capability that we own.  Only half of us see it in this perspective (sort of like – is the glass half empty or half full). And if you gave up after the first or second try, what good is that? A person must find their own rights and wrongs, before they can truly love another. Think about it, if you knew that loving someone would hurt so badly, you wouldn’t have done it in the first place. There is a 50/50 chance at all we do in life. Why not take the risk, leap totally into faith, and let fate be the decider. I’ve jumped, and believe me there was no bungee cord wrapped around my waist. So I have hit ground. And hard ground at that. But, that will not stop me from taking the jump once again, I will only be wiser when choosing where I want to land.

My advice…

Do not give up on something that might have not been in the first place.

Drama, drama… sits upon a comma

Here is a rant and a rave for you…

Is it not great when you are surrounded by people who have to have constant drama within their lives. I, for one, do not want to sit around daily and worry about what every one else is doing or thinking. I have much better things to do with my life, even cleaning my house leaves a much better taste in my mouth. I mean who seriously wants to spend their life in constant sorrow and stress. Not me.

So I am going to give you a couple of words to think about. If you are having problems reading them then try sounding them out. Hell, my seven year old can do it, and she even knows the meaning of them.

Acceptance – yeah that’s a mighty big word for some of you.

 

Honestly though, it has a simple definition. But,  just in case, the only thing that you need to know is that one must accept people for who they are. For if every single person in this world turned out to be the same type of person, that would be scary. We are all black and white, hot and cold, good and evil, wrong and right… get my drift. 

Oh and another big word for you…

Expectations – my famous thought (yeah it’s famous in my book)…

“It’s not the people who let you down, it’s your own expectation of them.”

I have no expectations of you or anyone else in my life. With that being said, I am never let down. I am always left feeling good about any situation that may arise.  I will let you know exactly how I feel and what I want, and there will be no expectations within that. You do as you please, and I will do the same. Believe me, it makes life a whole lot simpler.

And one more thing…

I feel that people should sweep off their own back porch before trying to clean mine. Need a broom, or do you want a vacuum for all the shit stored on there? I will even go and buy you some contractor bags if need be.  I am sure you know what I mean. If for instance, you have something bad to say about me, then in some way I will be able to turn it around to you, and you will then realize how pathetic your life is anyway. You know, shop vacs are not really all that expensive.

This might be hard for some of you to concept, but just take a few minutes, read over it a few times. Then do it again, until it is freshly impounded into your brain. It really is not hard at all, and the sooner you come to an understanding of this, then the sooner that you will be of some meaning in this world.

Sweet dreams, my queen…

 

 

Welcome to the Wonderful Life of Becky

Hello everyone... My name is Rebecca, but mostly people call me Becky.  I have two beautifully rotten girls who are Pantera (9), and Brianna (6).And they have become my life. I am currently working at Preston Memorial Hospital as Patient Access Specialist and of course I do love my job. I enjoy the people and it also presents a rather amusing atmosphere. I am going to finish my schooling to become an Psychologist (just got to figure out what is wrong with all of you people).So there you have the basics of my life... For the more in depth personal information - well that one is always hard. Because I don't like to brag or be conceded in myself. I think it is a waste of time for one to do that. Overall, though I would say that I am pretty easy going, and fun to be around. I very rarely ever get offended.

My interests - well I look at this way - Horizons are only reachable at death. - Meaning you only live once, so why limit yourself. I find that I actually have too many things that I enjoy, and if you stick around to find out more about me, I am sure that you will find that out too. I love making friends and meeting new people, so stop in and say hello and feel free to comment on anything. Anyway, For those of you who know me, well you gotta love me (even hate me sometimes). For those of you who don't know me and are just reading my thoughts out of boredom or whatever else may be the reason, well then maybe you can help me to conclude which one I really am - either mentally disturbed or maybe even rather normal. I will leave that one up to you to decide. Just remember though - Crazy? Is that the definition of me or you.